help me be a better mother. help me not to be jaded or angry. help me say no without feeling guilty. help me not see others through the lens of expected betrayal. help me stay focused on love and accept with grace every correction required when i lose my way. help me forgive what has already been forgiven. help me sleep and not mourn wakefulness. help me understand when to step in and when to step away. help me remain soft in heart and less judgmental of perceived wrongs. if possible, can you make me a silkie chicken farmer for a few years?