he told me not to trust any of them. he didn’t lie. the darkness is deeper than i could have imagined and can believe. i think it’s part nature to move forth one’s personal agenda, but the cost, the cost to others leaves me increasingly in a state of disbelief. the hypocrite side of me is in full force. i don’t personally believe in following rules but organizationally i do. i’m not sure if that makes sense, but i make it make sense… is that what everyone is doing? making their actions make sense? i think they’re all a bunch of motherfuckers so accept if i’m a motherfucker too.